to trust You

This song has been on repeat on my ipod for several weeks. It's not from a genre I normally listen to, but the words resonated in a way I can't describe. I wanted to leave them here for y'all tonight; they're so powerful:

"Did You hear me crying out to You? Did You hear me?

I did all I knew to do... I prayed, had faith, but You still took him away from me.

I can choose to ask why. I can choose to be angry. I can wrestle when life is not what I thought it would be. I can wish that all the pain would simply go away. And at the same time, I can choose, Lord, to trust You.

Do You see me? I can't do this on my own. Are You near me?

Just let me know I'm not alone.

I prayed, had faith that You would answer me so differently. So, I can choose to ask why. I can choose to be angry. I can wrestle when life is not what I thought it would be. I can wish that all the pain would simply go away. And at the same time, I can choose, Lord, to trust Your ways are not my ways, to know there's purpose in this pain, to trust that you will bring my joy again.

But I'm still asking why. I can wish that all this pain would simply go away, but at the same, I can choose, Lord, to trust You."

Jesus, Jesus, how I trust You, how I’ve proved You o’er and o’er. Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus. O for grace to trust You more...