Tuesday, June 23, 2009

time in between

I wanted to post a super quick update for my readers, all six of you (hey, Grandma!), with a little explanation of what's happening.

Most of y'all know how difficult the past few weeks in particular have been. Currently, cluster headache episodes begin around 5 P.M. each day and last, on average, until about 11:45 A.M. the next morning. On Sunday, my mom and I left town on a medical-emergency-trip because, after so many rounds of clusters this year, my health has been declining rapidly. I say all of this to justify a severe lack of "real" blog posts since, well, I started this site and especially lately. The last few days, all blogging attempts have been limited to post-it notes in doctors' waiting rooms and transferred via hotel internet in small amounts at a time (so as not to upset my BFF Nick, who totally just waved from the front desk).

Tonight will mark the sixteenth consecutive evening of "suicide headaches." Over the last year, we've charted the cluster cycles and a normal one lasts around thirty days, stops for about four weeks, then pops up again unwelcome after the three week break has come to an end. They're rare, complicated, stubborn little things, but since my three minutes in the business center is ticking away, a description of what the heck a cluster is anyway will have to come later. Google, yo.

So much about my life right now is rather unstable and inconsistent except, however, my God. Knowing you guys are praying for me and my family means more than I could even begin to describe, especially during the thirty seconds I have to end this post. (Hang on, Nick!)

These times are my in between days: praying for relief from the pain and hoping for answers; but it comes down to this: "the God whom we serve is able to save us. He will rescue us.... But even if He doesn't, we want to make it clear to you" that we will praise Him despite it all.

"But it's the time in between
that I fall down to my knees,
waiting on what You'll bring
and the things that I can't see.
I know my song's incomplete,
still I'll sing
in the time in between." - Francesca Battestelli

I love you all so, so much.


Abby Fields said...

Katie, you are such an inspiration for me. Your confidence and spiritual strenght helps me in my walk with God more that you will ever even know and you will be rewarded for your constant faith someday in heaven. I love you, girl! And I am doing some major praying for you. Keep us updated as much as you are able!

Morgan said...

I wish with all my heart that things were different for you. But, girl, I know God knows what He is doing and that makes me so very thankful.

Thanks for praising Him in the storm even when there seems no need,

Katie Laitkep said...

Thank you both! Y'all have been such an encouragement to me.... I seriously can't thank either one of you enough for all you have done. Two of the sweetest, kindest people I have ever known, hands down.

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